there’s quite a bit more meaghano to be had, of course. i’m stopping at page 30 because it’s 2am and i’m supposed to be an adult now. (i’ll probably never go back and read more, but this will likely end up in my roll that i’ve been barely keeping up with.)

watched drown in the now again just now, i definately like the song. wasn’t sure the first time through but knowing what to expect it totally works for me.

if i haven’t talked to you in person, know that my dealership is on the chrysler hit list. we’re appealing but who can say if it’ll work. june third i believe is when the bankruptcy court decides on the list and we find out if we’re staying open or not. either way i have to kind of assume i won’t have this job / a job in two months.

my options are not reassuring me. i’ve been having trouble sleeping and i’m not sure what to blame. it’s getting hot during the day and i can’t stand that.

this time last year they cut my hours by 25% and it wasn’t until like october that i really woke up and realized what was going on. the summer just kills my higher brain functions. not a good time to be looking for work.

a - shit job that earns as much as i was making / stasis and keep making the same mistakes
b - shit job that doesn’t earn as much as i need / move back in with my parents
c - part-time job + going back to school / get a better day job but keep delaying creative endeavors
d - part time job + creative endeavors / emotional satisfaction but keep delaying financial stability